Booking in blues part 6 (5 more weeks to POP...)

Tomorrow's booking in timing is 2015, shiok! But talking about blogging, I forgotten to write what happen last week >_< Probably too stressed with arm skote... I wrote a diary however, but I don't think I'll type it out, it's not pleasant to read too... guess I'll have to forget it and type what really happen this week...

SickestSitest?!

There we go, the Sitest that I have to excel in to achieve my goals to enter SISPEC... Even though my worse nightmare is to be together in the same details with morons... and my worse nightmare came true during the 1st day of Sitest...

When the details is announced, I know I'm doomed... One of the person whom I pay a lot of attention on is by this guy nicked "Chiam", which is one of my schoolmates in Ghim Moh Secondary School back then... You know, people who act as if they are smart will work effectively... but he does a little extra, cause he acts if he's smart, he tends to make you look stupid... in fact, all my group members are like this... I was like "That's it... my dreams are gone..."

"Sickest" Sitest Day 1

The day where I get a shock out of my life. So many officers with different colour uniform, different sizes, and they simply look like bosses, cooks, salesman... ... nothing to say...

The 1st day was just an introduction to our mates, which is pretty pointless, cause we are leaded by Sgt Chris... I can say I got alot of things similar to Sgt Chris... as in the attitude towards others... but since I work under him, I'll have to comply... 1st day was indeed ended with at least 1 person (Sim), who shared the bashas with me...

The next 2 days I also don't wanna discribe much liao, it's fucked up... I guess my dream is gone.... came back tired with att b for 5 days... a bad dry cough, and back pain.. gosh, and it's only 5 weeks more only >_<

Booking in blues part 5 (7 more weeks to POP...)

Today's booking in timing is 1845, sian... hopefully there's more time to prepare this week. This week is another BCCT, cocked up martial arts. Those that I can learn outside is much better than that. This week also introduced to us the SOC, omg! >_< I'm hoping that I can stand it! >_<

The Field Camp...

It was fine if you ask me, except I have to bear the 1st 3 days with the shitting feelings and with a large pile on my shit hole. Pretty terrible. Terrible till I can't remember what's going on on the 1st 3 days. But on the 4th day morning, I shitted everything, cause I know that day I will have tough training.

Indeed we have our tough training, camo ourselves and do some stuff others won't do, like fooling the location from the OC, it was hilarious! >_< But some misfortune incident happened when one of my platoon mate faint from dehydration. I was shocked and react immediately to call for medic. But that fucking driver just taking his nap there and act like nothing happen. Chee bye! >_<

But he's ok and the training goes on.

When it's time to co-operate with my section, of course, things doesn't goes well too and I became very pissed off. But after one of my section mates says, "You think you sergeant meh?" I was awoken. Yes, I hope to be a sergeant, but the way I act, they not happy I also understand. There's nothing I could do but to complain to my parents about it, and the same advise goes. "Do not butt into other people's business." I guess that'll remain as my motto from now on then.

On the 5th day, the day we leave the camp, the day we booked out, alot of things cocked up. My rations is in my field pack, before I know it, they brought it back to co. line. There goes my lunch... I was hungry and tired and they ordered us to clean our rifles. OMG! My cleaning kit is ALSO in my field pack... -_-.

What's worse, the stupid blank that I fired is faulty, which cause my whole rifle to jam badly! GOSH! When it's time to leave, I was 1/2 sian liao... Came back, feel quite unfamiliar with my surrounding, then I came back to bunk. Packed my stuff, and before I knew it, "SEND ARMS!"... "FUCK!" I thought, grab my "things" and rush down. (one of my bunk mates is pissed off for someone stealing his towel, well... he's my arm skurt 2IC...)

When sending arms, we are told to finish it in 2 min 30 sec. And I brief on my platoon for that. They seems letargic, so I expect we'll sure die. But I still put a little hope. "SEND ARMS!" the things started. When I finish, I was like, "Ok, quite fast..." then that fucking Sgt.Chris tells me 5 min +... WTF! Impossible... Then he say the timing between Platoon 1 and 2 mixed up and guess what, platoon 1's arm skurt 2 person genna, we whole platoon arm skurt genna, how unfair!

My morale went down. While bringing the book to my DI and sign, I did something that I never ever thought of doing, "complain...". I complained about that thing, and Sgt.Ngiam, the Sgt I respect the most tells me he'll handle it. I came back to the arm skurt, ordered to mop the floor, and I'm so moraleless that I dropped the mop like 10+ times accidentally (really accidentally)... Not only me, but alot also pissed off with Sgt.Chris, but I try to control myself about it. Yes, I shown him some fucked-up attitude when he ask me "What you've learn from this?", I replied him "Nothing, sergeant..." and walk off. When I saw my platoon is still there, I was like... "Hmm? What's going on?" (They should have march off for dinner). Sgt.Ngiam says he've told the whole platoon what happen, and the whole platoon will not move until we are done... I was like "OMG! THAT'S EVEN WORSE!" (personally I do not know what Sgt.Ngiam trying to do, but I thought it's another punishment...) I tell my assistant to hurry up and we march off for dinner. My morale is literally 0...

Before I booked out I saw Sgt.Ngiam, my thinking is either...
1) He'll just overlook this incident and well, it's normal for me....
2) He'll come over to ask me about the incident and we try to talk over it... which I don't expect that...

"2" really happened. I was like omg... I explained everything to Sgt.Ngiam and he clears up the air in the way it should be. He earns my respect even more >_<

I booked out with a super-heavy duffel bags, but I still managed to carry it all the way... I guess it's because I regain a little morale from Sgt.Ngiam... I don't really looking forward for book out, that should confirm about it...

This week...

Kinda bad I've said, I guess what I'll do is stay out of business from now on for my section... I'll just go through the next 5 days, and then... book out on a saturday evening....

Next week...

The week I've been looking for... The line between me and SISPEC. I'll not screw up like what I did at range, I'll do it as normal as I can, cause I know I'm a natural-born leader...

Gtg, need to rush through everything already, I'm afraid I might be late already. But anyway, wish me good luck! >_<

Field camp's photo!

Booking in blues part 4 (8 more weeks to POP...)

Today's booking in timing is 1830, pretty fine if you ask me... Plenty of time to get ready...

Tomorrow is the beginning of field camp. I can imagine how hellish it will be, yet my morale remains high... Why if you ask me? I personally think it's the time where I learn practical military skills and strategies from my Platoon Sergeant, 3SG Erizemen, who's ORD after this field camp. Mixed feeling when he punished us if you say that. Morale shoot down when he punish me, I was like struggling for push ups, crunches etc... Then when he recovered us, of course feeling shitty. But his phrase, "Your morale is always high..." really boast me alot... Though I do not know learning under pressure will do anything much, but surprisingly, I could remember most of the things he taught even with pressure... I'd certainly look forward to work with my section on the field camp no matter what. This is the army... even if anywhere I don't feel right, I'll just have to work with them... My section mate, LCP Ariffin, I trust him, I'm glad I'll be lead by him... But if I've been told to lead the section, I'll try my best...

To my platoon sergeant, 3SG Erizemen...
1) Thanks for nickname me, sniper... Though I couldn't really up to it...
2) All the best for your CD job!
3) All the best in managing your time for your GF ^_-

Incident recalled...

Talking about last week, if I can remember (I can't remember most of the things we went through, cause it's so normal), there are several incidents which is still in my mind...

1) The close combat training on friday is tough! Tough not as in what we've been told to do (physically), but tough in the stuff we've taught. Since where can you see Taekwondo + chinese Wushu into one? In army, my friend... When he teaches us the ready stance whatsoever, I know it's taekwondo... (I didn't waste my 2 1/2 years for nothing...) But when he teaches us other stuff, I was like @_@ wtf... sian... But frankly, the physical training is fierce too... feel the effect >_< Hate the instructor... (must be 1st dan from somewhere)

2) During 4 km route march somewhere in the middle before HH (I nickname it Hell Hill, the hill climb right after SISPEC), and after HH, I was screwed by my platoon mate (more like section mate) for why? For not sticking closed to the front man (which is another section mate). For fuck? I do not want to butt fuck him or what... Moreover I have a fucking pain on my back and my leg (all are old injuries) and it's just what? 1 steps (or 0) away from the front man to touch him... Chee bye... Looking at the front guy, it's even worse, I remember seeing a guy (or 2) at the right file (I'm at the left) slow down by 1 full position (That means the guy beside me, move back by 1 position cause the front slow down). Guess what I remember?

* My buddy, the guy beside my bed, shouted at me for saying "Look at the front...". (He shouted "What front?!" loudly) Super disappointed...
* Really wanna tell them, route march arn't butt fuck. Lag a few steps are not worse than lag a full position... Follow the guy at your left (or right)... We are humans, we tend to get tired or few recups of old injuries. They just don't understand...)

2nd incident is the most disappointing one... but I hope it'll not affect my performance in field camp. At the most next time I'll just go behind them, or ask them to move up then. There's worse examples at the front for them to shout, than to shout at me for doing my best. Disappointing... I don't go through uniform group for nothing... (even if I'm a damn corporal at NPCC... our timer is a cadat inspector (I think))

Gay? Or just finding trouble?

Last complain, dunno why there's a pappos around who "LOVES"... "HATES" whatever me so much, that when fall in, he must be near me. When I make a little mistakes, he'll comment. Fuckers if you ask me. A little mistake and he'll comment. Unhappy with him already. Well, I'll not mention who's him, if anyone reading this, guess it yourself... If you think it's you, then jolly well mind your own business. No need to order me around (telling me is worse enough, but I accept it if it's like that) cb understand?! Although I appreciate his effort on doing those stuff, there's time where I hate to be command around (especially when the time it's not necessary, like admin etc). (I hate bouncing boobs btw... if anyone understands what I'm trying to say, if not, stop imagining)...

The damn last week -_-

Well, at least let off my 50% grudges and whines. Who'll read it then? I'll just keep it as a reference myself then... Last week is shitty. I don't have a good mood cause my mum was sick and all these... gosh...

SISPEC WAS SO TOUGH?!

I never expected this... I was asking around information about SISPEC (from my PC, to my Sergeants, to my friends), how to get there, how fit those people are, how to qualify for SISPEC etc... To my surprise...
1) There wasn't anyone in my Coy's platoon for last batch who qualified for SISPEC! @_@
2) Obese tend to go to the other field than SISPEC
3) The average of the fitness there is IPPT silver!
4) For obese, SIT test must do VERY VERY well!
5) I can only do 1 pull up now!!!

ARGH! It was unexpected! I ask my friend how how how? He say dunno dunno dunno... I was like omg... Then he gave me some advices which I find it's useful (he's from SISPEC, currently undergoing Recce course starting 15th this month) for doing pull ups. I certainly hope it'll be useful...

Conclusion

As mentioned and I'll mention again, this week is field camp. And I'll be garang cause of a few reasons. Therefore I'll be super super pissed off with slackers. I'll see what I can write when I come back. Oh ya, I'll be thinking of keeping a diary for field camp if possible, but doesn't seems to have enough time to even cook our own rations... so I'll doubt it'll works. Anyway, wish me luck with learning and relationships ^_^

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Semper Fi!
Do or die!
Gung ho!
Gung ho!
Gung ho!

- Platoon 2, Gryphon Coy

My own motto for the field camp... copied from platoon 3's drinking cheer...

Can do, do!
Cannot do, also must do!
Why wait so long?
Just shut up and do!
One for all!
All for one!

Good luck to my body (no old injuries recup) and myself (my mind)!